Last Week's Run (5 weeks to go)
After such an unsuccessful run the previous week, I knew something needed to happen. I had to 'properly' injure myself and prove that I couldn't run it OR I had to power on through the pain and prove that the marathon was not over for me. Within half a mile I was sobbing. Great waves of tears, more self-pity, more frustration at my incompetancies and a LOT more pain.
|Ugly crying face.|
|Beautiful scenery helps pass time.|
Sunday's Run - Fleet Half Marathon (4 weeks to go)
So... It was make not break after that 16 mile run just over a week ago. This weekend I completed the Fleet Half Marathon and Mum found a place last minute and kept me going with jelly babies and Biofreeze. A particularly hideous cap also really helped in the 20 degree heat (!!).
|Cap dork alert.|
|Ain't nuffin' going to stop that woman and her phone.|
I'm still having regular phsyio, I'm still in pain, but I have a new found confidence that I certainly did not have two weeks ago. More than anything it has taken a lot to come to terms with the fact that this will not be the race I was training so hard for. Before, I would have aimed to complete the Fleet Half Marathon in under 2 hours (having run 6 miles there to make up the miles for the week) and today I was thrilled to just complete it... In 2 hours 27 minutes.
It's hard to tell someone that they won't achieve what they set out to do - that they shouldn't - because their bodies aren't up for it. It's also very unnatural running through the pain, but I just have to trust that my training up until now has been good and learn to recognise what is passing pain and what is a signal of long term damage.
...Contrary to the tone of this post I'm feeling very hopeful for race day.